Jealousy

Ревность What is jealousy?   This is a pain ... This is the unacceptance that a person is not belong to you. It is greed and a desire to grab another person. But basically - it is a pain from un mutual feelings. The pain of not being understood .... The pain of not being accepted ... The pain of not being loved.   This pain appears due to lack of love to yourself, due to lack of acceptance of yourself. We are trying to find, receive love and acceptance from others. We are looking for someone who fill our emptiness. It seems, that our pain will disappear or at least decrease in this way.   But this is absurd and banal, just because it is impossible. Even the best prosthesis in the world will not replace your hand. Only you by yourself can fill the emptiness in your Heart. Only you by yourself can fill your Heart with love. Only you can give yourself care.   At the time of the creation of the painting, the feeling of jealousy caused me only pain. This was the pain of my Ego, which only intensified over time. At the picture, I tried to convey the feeling of a break inside. It seems scary, painful, it doesn’t even want to be touched. But it turns out this is not breaking of your Heart. This breaks your old idea of how it should be. And in the depths of the gap new, beautiful and unknown is opening. The obsolete, ill is leaving, and this place is taking by something clean, bright, filling.   The Golden canvas in the painting symbolizes the Heart, feelings, emotions, which are breaking in the absence of self-filling. They break because of not being filled with own love. They break because of waiting what others will give you. Intense tension caused the break of your Heart’s Golden canvas breaks. And at the bottom of this gap there is no darkness, no fear, no dirt. There simply is not the lighting space of your Soul where nature and the essence of man are.   I wanted to show with my painting that even in the most difficult moments, when too much, when it seems that your Heart is broken and there is no way out ... Look carefully, there is no black space in the depths .... there are blue .... beautiful, clear colors ... And when you concentrate on that, the pain becomes sacred, beautiful and transforming. This is the most valuable thing that can be in life.